Cerulean Chimera

When I look at you I see a spark of brilliance

Of withstanding resilience

A man who hasn’t lived his fulfillment

Who’ll sacrifice his soul for reconcilement

And that is how I know you

I feel every ache, every battle you’ve been through

You’re the kind of man a girl dreams about

Who could free me of every aching doubt

And in that sense I lust your being

A soul like yours is so freeing

I’m young but my soul is so very old

And my heart has become so very cold

So cease the fickle game

And smother me in your pain

Together we can rock the tide

And in me you can confide

I want to know your first love and pain

Who kissed you hard in the pouring rain

I want to know all of you from tip to toe

And free you gently of your heavy woe

Kiss your wounds and your steady lips

And wrap my legs around your hips

Because I know you don’t get it – I’m young and I’m free

But you’ll never feel home like you do next to me


Disenchanted Dalliance

Don't look at me like that
You know I can't cope with your eyes
You know that I've spent years
Dancing in shadows of your lies
You are so beautiful
Although I can't quite work out
Whether you're that confident
Or your arrogance comes from doubt
It sometimes disgusts me
How you dance like the world is yours
But your aura is a breathe of fresh air
From the blues and the bores
You spin me in the moonlight
Your bright eyes with that glint
Each year we fall back together
I get that same old hint
It's like you want to caress me
Softly in your troubled embrace
But when my hands linger
You quickly let go of my face
Darling you're so scared aren't you?
Of opening up to the one you love to hate
But maybe our dark paths of life
Keep joining together as fate

a series of unfortunate heartwrench 1.0

You were the first
And since your lips I've been cursed
I remember thinking now this is complication
But you were the first of a whole damn compilation
It was all wrong we both said
But that all changed once we got to bed
When it was the two of us we didn't care
This innocent intimacy we didn't have to share
But when you have the world on your shoulder
The outside world acts as a boulder
You loved me yes I'm pretty sure
It's just you felt you owed your family more
We were too young to have felt what we felt
And really a shit card we got dealt
But you taught me love like no other
And you were my best friend as well as my lover
If the world wasn't so heavy maybe you'd still be here
And together we'd have conquered the obstacles and our fear

Rocky Horrorscope

I like my liquor bitter
Like my deep dark soul
Maybe it's kick
Will make me feel whole
If this doesn't then what?
Nothing seems to soothe
I feel blank yet so intricate
I could hang in the louvre
It is an art this life I live
There seems to be a knack
A bit like 'smile, don't falter'
'Don't let them see you crack'
I'm tired of this endless cycle
Of every god damn day
For god sake oh surely
There must be an easier way
But I've been down every avenue
I've shouted, begged and cried
But all to no avail
Well shit at least I tried
So now I sit in silence
Alone by choice of heart
There's no more chances given
To risk being torn apart
Oh solitude you may seem pitiful
To the eye of the spectator
But everyone leaves you nevertheless
I just found out sooner rather than later
Don't pity me my love
For some riches I still hold
And life has made me stronger
I'll be a wise girl when I'm old
And maybe one day I'll let go
Of what coats my heart in glass
I'll learn to love again
And let the memories pass
For this does not define me
This period of unclarity
But I can't seem to shake off
The overwhelming, encompassing disparity
And no matter how clear my head
Or foggy from the liquor I adore
Neither form gives me clues
To what the future has in store